i think God lets me get all depressed and upset and uncertain and hopless, just so i cry out and pray to Him, then within the same day, sometimes within just hours, someone, or something speaks to me. be it a person, the bible, or a book, the exact topic, describing my exact feelings or thoughts or worries or concerns, appears before me, tells me everything will be ok, or that im not crazy, or that i havent messed up, or shows me what i did wrong and how to do it right. and this has happened multiple times, in the past 2-3 weeks. if it was once or twice, i might have called it coincidence, but its been like 7 or 8 times. i know God is there watching, sometimes i just lose sight of that fact.

Isaiah 49:14-16 (it's been my favorite verse for a while, yet i still forget about it sometimes...)

But Zion said, "The LORD has forsaken me,
the Lord has forgotten me."

"Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
Though she may forget,
I will not forget you!

See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
your walls are ever before me.