His Will

More and more I find myself knowing God's will. Be it knowing exactly what it is, or being confident in knowing that i know. That may sound weird, but a year ago God was telling me to quit my job. Looking back, it couldn't have been clearer to me, yet I questioned. "is this really you God?", "do you want me to do this?". Everyday i asked, and everyday the answer was the same "Yes". In fact, before or since then, He has never spoken more clearly to me. But at the time, I did question.

Now, as i trust Him more, He gives me smaller things to do. A year ago if he had given me something small to do, i probably would have asked "is this really you God?", and convinced myself it wasnt, simply so i didnt have to obey.

Now He speaks and His will enters into me and stays there. As i paced in my daily devo's today, i was praying about the things i feel he wants me to do, the tasks he has given me, and came to realize that though i know them, and pray for them and the strength to do them, they havent been the center of my will. The Lord God Almighty has given me tasks, and i put them aside, planning to come back to them at a time that better suits me.

As i realized this, and pondered and examined and prayed about it, i wondered if other people do it as well. They're told something by God Himself, and they said "great! thank you God for talking to me! I love you!" and then theyre fired up for a day or two, and gradually the task falls to the wayside, to be revisited weekly, maybe more, maybe less, but never altogether forgotten, as I dont think God really lets us forget the will He has given us.

But then i thought to msyelf, "Which would God be more pleased by... someone who hears his will and makes it the center of his life until it is completed? Or the man who hears God's will, and then sets it in the periphery, to be done at his own discretion? Both men will eventually do their tasks, but i suspect, in my own human mind, that God would be more pleased by the one who does His task quickly, diligently, and faithfully, so that God can then give that man yet another task and further the Kingdom that much more, and that that man will know God's will that much more.

This all seems so obvious, but it is humbling when you realize you were man number two. And that not only are you not being faithful to God, you're harming yourself as you keep yourself from knowing MORE of God's will.

I don't know about anyone else, but i want to be the diligent one.